Starved for the Sacred: Of "high" and "low" church

My fiancé recently posted the following article on Facebook, which I found very interesting, about the number of young Christians who grew up in Evangelical churches and are turning toward "high" church traditions such as Anglicanism, Lutheranism, and Catholicism:

http://thechristianpundit.org/2013/07/17/young-evangelicals-are-getting-high/

I found the article particularly interesting because I have felt some dissatisfaction with evangelicalism myself and been drawn to the sense of timelessness and sacredness inherent in some of the high church liturgy, hymns, and even the arrangement of space.  The article has a definite bias, but it did make me think about some of the strengths of the Evangelical movement and how those churches which teach strong theology and such have singularly equipped young people to deepen and maintain Protestant faith.

My church's sanctuary is a  combined gym-plus-auditorium, and there is something in me that, in the midst of a true, genuine worship service feels starved for the sacred.  As Evangelicals we are great at making God and Christianity accessible through Christ, which I believe allows and compels us to love well and minister effectively in the community and abroad.  But when we sing of God's holiness yet approach Him so casually, sometimes I feel a disconnect.  It is good to "draw near the throne of grace with confidence" (Hebrews 4:16), but what happened to "[offering] God acceptable worship, with reverence and awe, for our God is a consuming fire"? (Hebrews 12:28-29)  Can the trust that is strengthened through relationship also be strengthened by a sense of His enormous greatness above and beyond our ken?

Cascades of Grace

"Experiencing the present purely is being emptied and hollow; you catch grace as a man fills his cup under a waterfall.

....These are our few live seasons.  Let us live them as purely as we can."

- Annie Dillard, Pilgrim at Tinker Creek

I love that picture—grace like holding a cup under a waterfall.  Dillard mostly means trying to hold onto the present, I think, but it fits the Biblical idea of grace, too.  It's not something you can catch and hold onto; put your hands around and keep in your fists.  Grace is supposed to flow through you: an enormous power that fills your smallness beyond measure only to pour out, sloshing and spilling all around you.  Experiencing grace for myself means I can't help but leave drips and puddles behind me and splashing a little on everyone I meet.

But alas...I think perhaps too few people keep themselves soaked in the waterfall all the time.  Great God, let me not be a dried-up Christian!

How amazing too that, though God could send His grace crashing through everyone and everything at once as He pleases, He sweetly allows us to carry about our dripping little cups in hopes that the small taste of His goodness and love might bring others to the waterfall in hopes of being drenched themselves.

Cascades of grace.  What a beautiful encouragement—I have an idea Annie Dillard hit the truth much more deeply than she probably realized!

The Form Unformed

That which was from the beginning,

The Form unformed,

Stretched out hand and voice,

Forming thus the formless

Into beauty and life.

That which was formed from formlessness

Committed treason against the Form unformed,

Bethinking itself to be eternal Form unformed.

And that which was formed

Was eternally deformed.

That which was made,

Thought the eternal Form unformed,

Ought to be unmade.

But he wished not to suffer

The destruction to un-form that which was once lovely.

That which was from the beginning,

Eternal Form unformed,

For our sake became one formed.

That which was deformed sought to deform him—

Sought in fact to render him formless.

That which from the beginning loved those he formed

Loved also those now deformed.

Giving himself up unto them,

The Form was unformed and re-formed,

Having no deformity in him.

That which was from the beginning,

The Form unformed, formed and re-formed,

So loved us that, while we were yet deformed

He suffered that we might be, with him,

Eternally transformed.

Puddle Dreams

For Chronicles of Narnia lovers, and a companion to Jessica's poem Puddles:

Two tiny birds, wildflower yellow

perch on the edge of a shining puddle,

Bodies reflected upside-down unbroken.

They have more courage than I:

Courage to chance finding wonder, joy, and new worlds;

Courage to chance bringing the disease of our destruction

On an untainted world.

They have more courage than I:

Courage to chance ruin

On their dreams of the mind;

To chance the world shrinking

By one gleaming possibility.

Why Life is like Violets

The violets have started blooming, as have the daffodils.

Don't get me wrong--I like the daffodils, with their bright rays of sunshine heralding spring amidst a world that still seems a little dubious at times (like snowing all day Friday).

But I really love violets.  I remember even when I was a very little girl getting excited when I found violets in the backyard.  They're tiny, simple flowers, but beautiful in their own right.  You would miss seeing them completely if you weren't looking or didn't keep your eyes open, because they are really just little flecks of purple hidden in the greening grass.  But if you do keep your eyes open, they too are forerunners of spring.  They are small and ordinary but very lovely whenever in bloom, and particularly exciting to find in the first chilly weeks of spring.

Daffodils are impossible to miss--I saw them blooming along the road today and couldn't help but be glad.

But violets, I think, are more like life.  There are nearly always tiny moments of beauty, small things that bring joy and pleasure, hidden throughout everyday existence.  It is easy to walk over them and never know; to pass through a field full of them but be too consumed with my own thoughts, worries, and tasks that I miss them altogether.  It takes keeping your eyes open, paying attention where you step, being willing to be surprised by moments of beauty in the everyday and find joy in the small, simple things.

The little things are important, too, even if they aren't so obvious.  Did you know, for instance, that the common violet is the Illinois state flower?  It's on the state website.

So keep your eyes open and enjoy the blooming of violets in spring :).

Tomorrow's Song

When the quiet of breath

And heartbeats subside,

Peace will remain and love abide.

All that was ever elusive

In flutter of leaf, symphony's soul

Be at last not in part but in glorious whole.

Sojourner will sing, finally home

Where the dream intersects with darkness and light,

And the fearful will rest in speechless delight.

When pain is forgotten

And rainfall subsides—

Peace will remain and love abide.

All the things in the world to learn

There are so many things I want to learn and know, and with so many things in the world, the list could probably reach into infinity--for if God, in His infinite wisdom created the world, it would surely take infinity for created beings to see and know and understand even portions of it, much less the whole.  But here are a few I was thinking of tonight:

To tell a tree by its bark

• I would love to study trees, and to be able to tell even 10 or 20 more by just their leaf or just their bark. I could probably only recognize 7-10 now.
• Birds: to know them by sight or song.
• Languages: there are so many languages in the world and I would love to learn pretty much any of them, and then too I would love to study the etymology of even just English words, because that has to be fascinating as well.  For instance, why are "wonder" and "wonder" the same word?  What does wondering about something have to do with the state of wide-eyed wonder?
• Music: to know even 10-15 composers by their music, much less be familiar with their stories.
• Music: to be able to play more beautiful classics on the piano.
• Clouds: to be able to observe and predict weather patterns without studying meteorology or the internet the way they used to and probably still do in a few places.
• The Bible: memorization is hard for me but having Scripture memorized is unequivocally rewarding and absolutely invaluable.  I would love to have, say 20 Psalms memorized; to have a full book or two in my head and heart to grow in me and shape me.
• Poetry: I want to read more poetry; become familiar with more English-speaking/writing poets and those from other countries too, and to have some of my favorites memorized as well; to be able to recognize a writer by his work.  This could also help me learn to write different types of poetry and to write them better, too!
• To be able to read a book in another language.
• Tea: how do they make it from a plant growing from the ground or the garden?  What makes good tea as well as all the different kinds (red, black, green, white)? I think I would like to learn how to make my own tea.

I'm sure if I kept thinking I could continue coming up with more, but I'd say that's a list substantial enough to start with.

What is the history of tea and how is it made?

What would be on your list?

Obligatory Spring Poem

Spring
    (or, Unlike March, April Presumes No Affectations)

Birdsong heralds dawn;
Tiny, soft green shoots sprout in
Fields of dry brown grass.

Broken Chains

[A testament to the work of God as visible and breaking through walls in me throughout the past week]

I said, "My Lord, why won't you break through my chains and free me from them?"

And He said to me, "Fix your eyes on me, not your sins and shortcomings and failures."

And I saw God was so much greater than my chains and I was ashamed to call His power insufficient.

I said, "You said You have broken my chains, and I see that parts are in pieces, but I can't seem to let go of them—they weigh down my feet as I shuffle along, and my back is bent under the load."

He said, "My child, you are free."

I replied, "I know, but I can't seem to feel this freedom!" And suddenly I saw that the chains were not bound to me but I was grabbing them from the ground and laying them over myself till I groaned from the weight.

Toward this Tremulous Obedience

To a daughter he said,

                                Sing.

She said,

I have no time.

He said—             Sing.

She said,              I have no notes.

He said—             Sing.

She said,              My voice is weak.

He said—             Sing.

She whispered,

                Father, they will not hear.

And he answered—

                Sing.

— And, Lord, they will not like the song.

— My child, sing.

                                                And she sang,

                                                And few heard,

                                                And the world was in need of her song.

To a son he said,